O_o End of the sem report!
Thursday, 27 October 2011 07:46![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
catatonic_17It's been ages since I wrote anything here. Wahhhh. Where do I begin? Updates in bullets!
* I was able to get through my 1st semester as a grad student. I only had two subjects, with a LOT of prep time in between, but sadly I still found myself procrastinating and cramming, and ending up not going to midweek prayer meetings and after-church activities because I do not know how to manage my time. After four years of undergrad life, I still haven't learned. I still end up watching shows/browsing the end when I have something scheduled to do. I know very well that if I do not do it at that scheduled time, my schedule would become too tight to get any adequate cognitive processing done. *sigh*
* I got my grade from one of my subjects, and I am disappointed with it. I can only say this here, not daring to voice my opinion out loud. I really worked so hard for that subject, reading the assigned material in advanced, making notes, actively participating in class discussion. My exams were pretty high as well. I don't understand why I wasn't able to reach my prof's standards. I'm so disappointed at myself, knowing that I make my grades, but I can't think of anything I should have done to improve my performance. I comfort myself with my classmate's own disappointment with her grade. (Yes, I am grade-conscious. Only because I decided to aim for a flat one this semester. Maybe I should stop making such goals, while still working hard, because my focus is suddenly shifted to my grades and not my class performance).
* My other class' prof is a close friend of my mom and aunt. So I feel this need to excel in her class. It was amazing that she was so impressed by our report, even though I was fretting a few weeks before, saying that I did not understand anything (the material was hard for me to integrate), cramming reading a few hours before the presentation. Thank God my partner was very competent and dependable. It was amazing how God worked in that report. I know for a fact that it wasn't my own skill and ability that made that report a success. When she met my mom and my aunt, she wouldn't stop raving about it. It was embarrassing because it wasn't me that deserved that praise.
* Another praise item. That same prof has invited me to come with her to one of her workshops to train me under her wing. Wahhh. I've always wanted to experience that--gaining experience in the field. And what's even more amazing is that she is helping my mom get back to practicing psychology again. So awesome. <3
* The School of Leaders at church is wrapping up with a final exam a few hours from now. I guess I could count this as another class. We met every tuesday for 13 weeks. Every week we had to submit assignments, our daily devotion for the week, memorize verses and review for tests as well. We also wrote book reports (more like chapter reports). Did I work conscientiously for this course as well? Not really. :3 I always end up writing assignments at the last minute.But I really learned a lot from the teachers in SOL1. Too bad I have classes on tuesdays next semester so I cannot attend SOL2.
* Next sem, I'll have three subjects. Meaning, I have to do a better juggling act next semester. :3 nyoron~
This sem, was a pretty good start. I really like going to school, even though I stress and create situations that stress me sometimes. I really hope that I get to become a good psychologist after working with my psych mentor. There's so much to be done out there in the field, with people losing so much because of natural disasters, crimes and wars. I know that I am just a speck and I don;t expect that I will be changing the world, but I don''t like the idea of just sitting around and just watching, not doing anything--when I know I could, as small as it may be.
I only have a few days to laze around, so I'm trying (emphasis on trying) to get some work done. *I'm so blessed that I can work at home, at my own pace.* I better get to work then
* I was able to get through my 1st semester as a grad student. I only had two subjects, with a LOT of prep time in between, but sadly I still found myself procrastinating and cramming, and ending up not going to midweek prayer meetings and after-church activities because I do not know how to manage my time. After four years of undergrad life, I still haven't learned. I still end up watching shows/browsing the end when I have something scheduled to do. I know very well that if I do not do it at that scheduled time, my schedule would become too tight to get any adequate cognitive processing done. *sigh*
* I got my grade from one of my subjects, and I am disappointed with it. I can only say this here, not daring to voice my opinion out loud. I really worked so hard for that subject, reading the assigned material in advanced, making notes, actively participating in class discussion. My exams were pretty high as well. I don't understand why I wasn't able to reach my prof's standards. I'm so disappointed at myself, knowing that I make my grades, but I can't think of anything I should have done to improve my performance. I comfort myself with my classmate's own disappointment with her grade. (Yes, I am grade-conscious. Only because I decided to aim for a flat one this semester. Maybe I should stop making such goals, while still working hard, because my focus is suddenly shifted to my grades and not my class performance).
* My other class' prof is a close friend of my mom and aunt. So I feel this need to excel in her class. It was amazing that she was so impressed by our report, even though I was fretting a few weeks before, saying that I did not understand anything (the material was hard for me to integrate), cramming reading a few hours before the presentation. Thank God my partner was very competent and dependable. It was amazing how God worked in that report. I know for a fact that it wasn't my own skill and ability that made that report a success. When she met my mom and my aunt, she wouldn't stop raving about it. It was embarrassing because it wasn't me that deserved that praise.
* Another praise item. That same prof has invited me to come with her to one of her workshops to train me under her wing. Wahhh. I've always wanted to experience that--gaining experience in the field. And what's even more amazing is that she is helping my mom get back to practicing psychology again. So awesome. <3
* The School of Leaders at church is wrapping up with a final exam a few hours from now. I guess I could count this as another class. We met every tuesday for 13 weeks. Every week we had to submit assignments, our daily devotion for the week, memorize verses and review for tests as well. We also wrote book reports (more like chapter reports). Did I work conscientiously for this course as well? Not really. :3 I always end up writing assignments at the last minute.But I really learned a lot from the teachers in SOL1. Too bad I have classes on tuesdays next semester so I cannot attend SOL2.
* Next sem, I'll have three subjects. Meaning, I have to do a better juggling act next semester. :3 nyoron~
This sem, was a pretty good start. I really like going to school, even though I stress and create situations that stress me sometimes. I really hope that I get to become a good psychologist after working with my psych mentor. There's so much to be done out there in the field, with people losing so much because of natural disasters, crimes and wars. I know that I am just a speck and I don;t expect that I will be changing the world, but I don''t like the idea of just sitting around and just watching, not doing anything--when I know I could, as small as it may be.
I only have a few days to laze around, so I'm trying (emphasis on trying) to get some work done. *I'm so blessed that I can work at home, at my own pace.* I better get to work then
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